...............If I were here to stay
Since
the arrival of the music she had lived in a turmoil of appreciation mingled
with rapture. Something awful must have happened to make him return to this
disgusting Montmartre but he was coming back and that was wonderful! It had
been lonely without him. All morning she had fretted in her lodge, unable to
read the newspaper or arrange her beads, peeping out of the window every few
minutes.
“Now at last he was here!”
“Monsieur!” she repeated as the
fiacre slowed down to a hall. “How are you Monsieur? The studio’s just like you
felt it. I started dangling and the place is nice and….”
She stopped short.
Something was wrong. He looked the
same, yet he didn’t. His eyes! That’s it. They were bigger, darker, not gay and
boyish any more.
“You feel all right?”
He gave her a warm, sad smile, as she
dance on.
“Yes, thank you, Madame Loubet, I
feel very well. And it’s good to be back. I missed you. ”
When they reached the second floor, he
pushed open the door and hobbled directly to the window. For a moment he stood,
leaning on his boots, gazing out at the familiar panorama of jagged roofs and chimney
pots. The winter sky had a belated autumnal softness that reminded him of the last
drives with Jane.
He turned around, sniffed the faint
smell of turpentine still lingering in the air. “It’s good to be back he
repeated.”